IntrovertlyOutgoing

"I know how it feels, I’ve been there before, I’ve had my head in my hands and my heart on the floor, I’ve been worthless and shattered, I’ve been nothing to people, I know what it’s like to have to force them to see you. I know how it feels to swallow some pills and hope that you die or hope that you’re killed. I know what it’s like to sit and to write the letter that will change everyone’s life, ‘cause I knew in my mind if they didn’t care now, they would when I was gone, and every-fucking-body would feel what I felt in my bones. They’d feel the earth shake and rattle from the ground underneath. They’d view me with grief, they’d give me the peace they could have given to me when I was right in their face. It’ll take some waking them up, but I’ll do whatever it takes, they just need to see that I’m something. I’m some-fucking-body, I’m a heart, I’m a mind, I’m a soul, I’m a body, I’m not disposable garbage, I’m not disgusting and wrong, but maybe they’ll see that when I’m finally gone. But see, I learned the mistake that I made was allowing other people to change the way that I saw myself. Now I see myself, I see me so fucking clearly I could cry, everytime I look myself in the eye it’s because I know what you’re going through, I know who you are. I’ve traveled that road, I’ve just taken it further, so this is for you."

Angel Haze, If You’re Contemplating Suicide (via whenitraeens)

(Source: weezyhome, via waveitaway)